A coeur ouvert..

Someone told me best friend forever and now it's like we never knew each other..

Someone told me he'd love me forever and days later turned his back at me..

Someone told me he/she'd be here for me forever but left..



That's when I've stopped believing in this shit of FOREVER </3

Alors on finit par imposer une barriere entre les autres et nous, on s'empeche de profiter du moment present, et cette barriere ne nous permet pas de voir que nos vrais amis eux seront toujours la pour nous et que le bonheur est peut-etre juste sous nos nez...


On a peur du futur, de l'inconnue.. et on finit par vivre dans le passE, dans nos souvenirs.. On se rejoue les bons moments qu'on a passE dans nos petites tetes. Et a la fin, on ne vit pas; on ne profite point des merveilleux moments qui peut-etre nous attendent.
Et alors, quand l'on sait que quelques choses a une fin, et que cette fin est proche, on s'apitoie sur son sort.. au lieu de profiter des instants qu'il nous restent..
Peut-etre qu'il vaut mieux ne pas trop passer de bons moments non plus en compagnie d'une personne quand l'on sait que la separation est proche.. Pour moins souffrir par la suite.. Pour moins ressentir cette nostalgie quand cette personne sera bien loin.
Mais ouvre les yeux : au final, ne vaut-il pas mieux garder des bons souvenirs, meme s'ils sont douloureux quand on y repense que de rien avoir du tout comme souvenirs?

Des histoires qui rechauffent le coeur :')
Les contes de fees de mes amis,
ceux qui font de ma vie une aventure qui vaut la peine d'etre vecu.

C'est si facile de pointer du doigt. On croit tout savoir ; savoir ce que les ressentent les autres.. mais la vérité ce qu'on en sait RIEN ! Si facile de juger quand on n'est pas a la place de celui ou celle qu'on juge.. Sans meme le ou la connaitre.


Sometimes people think it doesnt hurt.. but gosh ! they don't know a shit about it. It hurts so badly.. But yeah sometimes, it's better to keep this feeling inside.. Fake smiles.. Just because you don't want peeps to worry about you.. nor to pity you.. To protect yourself somehow. Pretend eveything's alright when our world had just turned upside down.. Pretend.. It's all you've got left.. Find ways to mend the broken pieces and forget.. yet, deep inside, this pain is always there. You can't hide it for ever. Nothing lasts forever anyway. It's pathetic how in a blink of an eye, everything can fall apart. You didn't even see it coming. Living in illusions.. And falling even deeper underground when it all ends. Life's NOT a fairytale.. There's rarely,if not never, a happy ending.. I guess watching too much one tree hill♥ gave me too much hope.. Believing everything's gonna be okay but only fooling myself. Maybe i'm the one to blame. Maybe.. I'm the one that screw up everything everytime and i'm only getting what i deserved from my actions. But hey? we learnt from mistakes right? Im paying for my mistakes. Continuously. Regrets, Nostalgia, dreaming of the what-could-have-been or what should-have-been, feeling guilty. Always trying to please those i love but in the end only hurting them, always making the wrong choices and tearing everything up.. Always listening to what other people say instead of following my heart.. Being too serious and not living [...] What's meant to be will always find its way. But sometimes we need time and a great deal of luck. Sometimes, you have to make fate be on your side.. You have to make it happen. I guess i failed in this part. The past can't be undone.. Mistakes can't be erased. You're only left with hoping that everything will be okay.. and that the future will be even better than in memories. I'd give everythin to turn back the hands of time, and if i could, i'd never let them down. I wouldnt have let them go. Stupid, selfish, impulsive.. this was how I was..and will always be some times i guess. They say it's sad when people you know become people you knew.. But let me tell you what's even sadder, it's not being who you thought you were.. not being who you'd like to be.. Everything is determined by the choices you made.And every one of these choices will lead you somewhere, for the better or for the worse.. Sometimes you have to go through the worse to understand what the better is. Life's made up of up's and down's, but everything happens for a reason. Whoever said that after the rain comes the sun only said bullshits. The truth is: after the rain comes the storm.. It never ends.. The rays of light you think you're seeing, they are just illusions, trying to make you think the worse is behind.Just Bulshit. Im afraid to be happy because everytime i am, something bad always happen..


[To be completed..]

The hard truth :
Everybody's gonna deceive you, one day or another.

second truth?
Loving someone is giving him/her the power to break you, yet trusting them not to.

My question :
Isn't that enough?!

question number 2 :
Is it really worth it?






What to remember :